I’m barely awake but I’d like to expose my feelings further . I really can’t find my dash. I don’t know if I’m qualified to fill all the blanks. What bothers me the most is that, I’m giving all my best but still, I have this feeling that it’s not enough. I know for a fact that anxiety can kill me . And it’s really happening right now. So hard to bunch up hopes. All I wanna do is to stop thinking and lay it all on HIS hands. I wish I can see my foresight when I wake up. It’s really awful to doubt my own strength. But I have to believe in myself cause if I don’t , NO ONE will . I’m casting away my fears and anxiety . Let me be free from worries and uncertainty. I can do it. I can make it. That’s all :D
Good night .. Let’s rest ..
As tough times keep coming my way. Me, as a person , I’m becoming worse and worse everyday. Just like the weather today , I hurt people with my presence and I don’t know what to say. Life is really getting awfully harder. I don’t think if I can still handle it well. It feels like I’m showing the lowest version of my individuality. Forgive me for being a jerk. It only proves that I’m a human , I can’t be perfect. Sometimes , I fail as a daughter , as a student or even as a friend. We fail in life, it’s a constant fact. But that doesn’t mean that we should stop. Yeah , I know right. That’s why I’m thankful to the people who are provoking me and to that one person who became my personal droll (when I needed it most) , my motivator , a stress reliever and on top of all, an anger absorber . It means a lot. And of course , I can no longer take even a single step if GOD is not with me., Life has so much to offer , we should just learn to dwell with it.
TIME AFTER TIME :)
Lying in my bed I hear the clock tick,
And think of you
Caught up in circles confusion—
Is nothing new
Flashback—warm nights—
Almost left behind
Suitcases of memories,
Time after—
Sometimes you picture me—
I’m walking too far ahead
You’re calling to me, I can’t hear
What you’ve said—
Then you say—go slow—
I fall behind—
The second hand unwinds
[Chorus:]
If you’re lost you can look—and you will find me
Time after time
If you fall I will catch you—I’ll be waiting
Time after time
After my picture fades and darkness has
Turned to gray
Watching through windows—you’re wondering
If I’m OK
Secrets stolen from deep inside
The drum beats out of time—
[Chorus:]
You said go slow—
I fall behind
The second hand unwinds—
[Chorus:]
Time after time…
Time after time…
Time after time…
Time after time…